i received a message from mom this morning
she wished me happy easter
i trembled
it's 11 days to april
i used to be excited of the arrival of my birthday month but not this year
it was a shocking news although i did expect it
but i didnt know that it would be so soon
2 more weeks and he will be gone for years
as much as i do not want him to go
but what right do i have?
im happy as well, in fact that is what he always wanted to do
but ...
i only know him for 3 months
it's a small little tiny portion of his life
yet it means a lot to me
i do not even fully understand how he feels towards me
it' too complex as he always say
maybe i too, do not understand myself ... my feelings towards him
well, this is not a decision that i can agree/oppose on
it is his and im happy on whatever choice he has made
:)
it is more difficult for him i guess
haha
if u r reding this, CHEER UP okaes
surely things will be great there :)
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kelvin used his rune at // 10:29 AM