this year is both a happy and difficult year ... for me
happy but difficult ... happy and difficult ... which one sounds more appropriate ?
im happy because i can be with a person whom i like very much
a person who makes me smile whenever i think about him, makes my heart beats faster every time i see him ( in cam )
someone i care, someone i love
someone that i want to hug every night
someone i want to stay committed to,stay faithful to
a person who will be in my dreams and nightmares
a person i can find comfort in
however, looking at how the situation is now
the myriad of barriers ( and i really mean there are plenty of them )
i have to admit that it is difficult
it is hurtful to see your msn nick as 'offline' because the distant seems to be further
it hurts when i hear none from you
i dont feel insecure ... i guess im just lonely
but i cant expect anything more
i can only expect one from myself, to be waiting truthfully
you can count on me for that ... i promise
at this very second, i feel happy and sad
happy that i have someone and sad because he is not here
i understand how when you are in something-which-i-think-i-shouldnt-mention, you will sacrifice anything to make it works
i miss you .... my bolster is going to suffer because of that ! hahaa
it is going to be an awfully long day for me tomorrow
and not to mention the irritating existence of two ulcers
haiz
kelvin used his rune at // 11:25 PM