yey
here comes my 100th post and indeed this is the turning point of my life
just went back from a party at siloso beach
it was rather fun but the musics were really dry that they kept on repeating the same thing over and over again
there was a fashion show in the beginning and guess what ? byron was modelling for newurbanmale
hahaa
well, yeah ...
the night with sasa, dimas, mario, amel, candy, santi and hendra was awesome yet tiring but they are still watching shutter at the livingroom now
hHAHAH
here comes the most interesting part
FCK FCK FCK FCK
i said dat when i saw shaun tonite
yeah and it was bad
but strangely, i didnt feel anything
and the encounter was clear enough to show me that yesss the feeling's gone
hes no longer associated with me ( i am no longer associated him with me )
hes a stranger, a total stranger, though he has wlays be one for the past few years
strange yeah
haha
but im happy
im glad dat i can, at last, step foward with my life, creating new pages of this journey
well, i asked myself, how could it happen ? you know, the absence of admiration
i found out
i found the answer
it was alex
ive found a better person than him, a person who is more valuable to me
because of alex, i can get over with my past
get over with my failures
it's not a goodbye as there wasnt any beginning
life moves on
i have no time to think about the past, about shaun anymore
alex is here with me andthat is the most important thing to me
shaun reminds me of ken
he ... lies to himself
he doesnt believe n himself
or maybe im wrong
but i feel that is i advice him," Be happy Shaun "
he would answer with " I'll try "
friend or no friendis not a matter to me anymore
al i need now is alex
for whom i really fond of
my eyelids are struggling to rest
and yes i better do too
hehee
good nitez
kelvin used his rune at // 3:57 AM